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…stress…and sleep….and life.

17 Apr

Have you ever had financial struggles? Or are my husband and I the only ones?

I gotta say, eating healthfully on a budget can be difficult. I look forward to the day when I can post about all my AMAZING tips on ‘How to Eat REAL on a tight budget’. The real downfall for me is, I live in the Golden Heart of Alaska…North Pole, Alaska…12 miles from Downtown Fairbanks, Alaska. Well, as you can imagine, it’s still COLD here…and will be for QUIET a bit longer. I don’t have an established garden. I don’t have a greenhouse  I don’t have a lot of space in my home. And as you can guess living in Alaska, food costs are HIGH for produce and such.

So, here I am, working to make my lifestyle change SUCCESSFUL. Sometimes, it can be stressful. Not EATING or buying, but affording. I long for a growing period longer than Alaska’s 90 days. I dream of Roseburg, Oregon’s typical growing season of 280 days….um…hello! Can you say, HEAVENLY!?

Anyhow…the stress of catching up on winters bills…and LIVING this whole healthy way with Alaska’s unique challenges was really taking it’s toll on me. I’ve not been a very good financial manager of our home. I don’t understand why, because I am a very bright woman and love details and love managing stuff…so then why the struggle with our personal money? Oh, why? Hmmmm…I’ll figure it out, sooner or later. Hopefully SOONER than later. 😉

The stress, added to the penny pinching in my pantry, left me with fewer options for healthful food. And I refused to eat ‘old school’. Then it just overwhelmed me, and the stress built up (I am very good at chiding myself for my shortcomings in the financial areas of our livelihood.) and I started craving crazy stuff. Stuff I haven’t craved or wanted or thought of in the previous 49 days. So, rather than beating myself up for ‘wanting’ carbs/sugar/etc…I CHOSE ‘serving’ sizes of particular things. I have two cups of coffee, with processed white sugar and half and half, (a total of 8 teaspoons of sugar, I like(d) my coffee sweet, hence the GETTING OFF coffee and switching to Green Tea without sweetener), and a serving size of Rocky Road Ice Cream (1/2 cup) and later in the day, I had 1 oz. of sharp cheddar cheese.

Well, let me just point out, EVERY SINGLE item I chose, even though it was small servings, etc, when you look at them, they are ALL the PERFECT recipe for a MIGRAINE! YAY ME!

STRESS

SLEEP ISSUES

SUGAR

CHOCOLATE

and drumroll…..

CHEESE

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I was actually dressing in the locker room at Planet Fitness, soooo wanting to get a good work out in…and I started having my visual disturbances in my left eye, flashing lights and impaired sight…ugh…sad face. I decided to not workout and stress my body under those conditions. By the time I came home, my ‘painless migraine’ turned not so painless…Needless to say, it was lame. 😦

Today was much better. I had a pretty bad headache, which felt more like my sleep apnea headaches. I was looking forward to my sleep testing tonight…however, sadly, both for me, but mostly for the tech, I had to reschedule. The tech had a family emergency, and no one could cover for them. I said a prayer for the tech, and rescheduled for Saturday.

I had a nice day, after the ‘blahs’ in the morning…and spent a couple hours with a dear friend of mine…and to end it, we walked. And it was fabulous. 🙂

So, my sucky day turned out very nice. I took it easy, and ate well today. It always amazes me how our bodies know what is good for them and how the elements of stress and sleep issues cause our bodies to crave certain things. Pretty fascinating. Yep, yep.

Be blessed. 🙂

Oh, I’m going to attach a photo I took the other night, trying to get a picture of the Big Dipper…I got a bit of the Northern Lights in there. What do you think? 🙂 Northern Lights Big Dipper 4 14 2013